Wednesday, November 14, 2012
What I Wish I Did
High School
Year 1
1 Religion I
2 English II
3 Geometry
4 History
5 Biology I
6 Health | PE I
7 Civics
Year 2
1 Religion II
2 English III
3 Algebra II
4 History
5 Chemistry I
6 PE II
7 Advanced Math
Year 3
1 Religion III
2 English IV
3 Calculus I
4 History
5 Physics
6 English V
7 PE III
Loyola University New Orleans - Communications & Required Minor in French
Take 18 credits a semester and 3 classes in the summer and graduate turning 20.
Work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.
Year 1
1 Religion I
2 English II
3 Geometry
4 History
5 Biology I
6 Health | PE I
7 Civics
Year 2
1 Religion II
2 English III
3 Algebra II
4 History
5 Chemistry I
6 PE II
7 Advanced Math
Year 3
1 Religion III
2 English IV
3 Calculus I
4 History
5 Physics
6 English V
7 PE III
Loyola University New Orleans - Communications & Required Minor in French
Take 18 credits a semester and 3 classes in the summer and graduate turning 20.
Work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.
Dominos
I'm eating Dominos. Pepperoni pan pizza, spinach and something else filled bread, and the chocolate lava cakes.
Ellen DeGeneres and Race
This is a topic on Ellen DeGeneres and race.
She does seem to follow the cut out thing and not latch onto something like the Chinese.
She does seem to follow the cut out thing and not latch onto something like the Chinese.
Race
Why did all the other mixed race people not act that European? Perhaps, they hid. I know Asians seem to have problems looking Asian but in a good way not just like a painful way. I know people from hotter climates struggled with skin that wasn't as light as Europeans.
Help!
My right eye contact stung me one day recently. It turned blurry today. It made my eyelid close more. That eye also has been going, like, felt disconnected and solid and like faded or blurred. Not exactly what I described, but you know something like that.
Comfits
My dad used to be more respectful of me. I finally got pretty when I wasn't doing gymnastics. He respected, in a way, my affections for others. My life never did get successfully comfortable.
TV
So, me deciding to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" makes me liable to her for deciding to do something that would make me feel better?
Non-Europeans
Wow, you all don't like to think and are mean. You are also suggestive to people who are not European. They really use other people in bad ways. They just hide what they've done. I don't really want to hurt anyone, but it's hard to think the wo
I noticed that people have drawn from Ellen DeGeneres's show. I want to know right now who made the crap up about the disgusting negros with bloody eyes popping out.
I noticed that people have drawn from Ellen DeGeneres's show. I want to know right now who made the crap up about the disgusting negros with bloody eyes popping out.
Overly-Analytical
Why do we have to over analyze things because of Ellen DeGeneres? She doesn't believe in morals. xp
My Dad
I don't like the way my father has been treating me. I don't like how he has to be involved in my life how he is because it's really considered inappropriate. I know it's also how this message is relayed via others. Sometimes, he has to be nice when he's around me.
I look funny!
I look kinda funny. Maybe, the bacon? I had Wendy's recently and before a Domino's order and have been having some stuff like this like 1 - 2 times per week.
Swimming
Something big that affected my life was when I was 1-2 and didn't want to take swimming. I was put in the pool with this teen boy and made to writhe for a few seconds to float, went totally crazy, exploded. He seemed racist, and that so disgusted me. I kept telling my mom to take me out. Then, I didn't do ballet until I was 5.
When I was 17, I swam in my aunt's outdoor pool immediately, amazing. Well, I had taken swimming lessons, but this was amazing. I have lots of good memories with her, but it seems like it wasn't enough. I'm thinking of kayaking in Key West twice, the 1st time with more people out in the ocean. The 2nd time, I went on a ghost tour.
When I was 17, I swam in my aunt's outdoor pool immediately, amazing. Well, I had taken swimming lessons, but this was amazing. I have lots of good memories with her, but it seems like it wasn't enough. I'm thinking of kayaking in Key West twice, the 1st time with more people out in the ocean. The 2nd time, I went on a ghost tour.
What I Should Have Done
I guess, in 11th grade, I should have gotten out of American History APG and trudged along with Advanced Math APG and Physics H.
I guess, in 12th grade, I should have done:
1 Religion IV
2 English V APH
3 Calculus I APH
4 World History
5 Health | Civics
6
7
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Public Relations & Required Minor in French
Graduate & work @ Burbank 4 Disney Junior.
I guess, in 12th grade, I should have done:
1 Religion IV
2 English V APH
3 Calculus I APH
4 World History
5 Health | Civics
6
7
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Public Relations & Required Minor in French
Graduate & work @ Burbank 4 Disney Junior.
Dream
I was with this girl, and I don't remember what we were doing though we were together awhile. She had a really big thumb and small pinky.
Then, I went in and saw a lady who was dressed like me, like on my first day of school. She had a very rich peach top that was like a dress, glittered, over maybe gold glittery pants that were lose. She hugged me a little. Then, I was in my bathroom with her and another lady. The other lady was taller and bigger, and the lady I saw first was just a little taller and was bigger. I hugged her awhile.
Then, I had another dream. I think I was at a church with a male preacher. I was sorta in trouble but not big trouble, for some weird thing I did. I went out. I was walking along, met some kids from New Orleans. They were thinking how their experience was genuine as New Orleanians. Some had kinda voluminous hair. They accepted me for some reason, and I Was taken into their stride.
These dreams were long, though I think the 2nd lasted from 11:11 A.M. - like 12:23 A.M.
Then, I went in and saw a lady who was dressed like me, like on my first day of school. She had a very rich peach top that was like a dress, glittered, over maybe gold glittery pants that were lose. She hugged me a little. Then, I was in my bathroom with her and another lady. The other lady was taller and bigger, and the lady I saw first was just a little taller and was bigger. I hugged her awhile.
Then, I had another dream. I think I was at a church with a male preacher. I was sorta in trouble but not big trouble, for some weird thing I did. I went out. I was walking along, met some kids from New Orleans. They were thinking how their experience was genuine as New Orleanians. Some had kinda voluminous hair. They accepted me for some reason, and I Was taken into their stride.
These dreams were long, though I think the 2nd lasted from 11:11 A.M. - like 12:23 A.M.
Tags
Do you think the tags are cute? I used to just mainly have like halp and race and stuff. :| Well, other things, too. I never listed the tags.
At Bay
I don't believe in holding people at bay just some of them who are not famous as of the moment. What kind of suggestion is that? Who encourages you to want to be famous, these days? People will realize the undoing of it all, that it was merely a tool and not a reality. I didn't know I needed a lesson thrown on me. Where's my comfort?
Tim Burton
Tim Burton knows that in the experiment I'm in I was indicated by more than 1 person, by 3 or more, to call his daughter the n word. I didn't do it in a hurtful way, but it could have been interpreted that way to induce pity.
Tim Burton
I'm unimpressed with Tim Burton being mean and then getting mad at you for getting mad about it.
STOP
Stop cursing at people, trying to torture them and affect them. You wanna talk about "something?" You can't just imagine this in case in this crazy, totally uncivilized way. See, the n word thing wasn't a good idea. You can't blame me "for it" other than for not deciding to literally not listen. Just shet up! I wanna go to bed and watch TV! ':0
HELP
People are chanting "nigger" at my future daughter, for some strange reason. She was locked up safe. Now, she's being reduced to smithereens. Is this true? Because "this" is lame.
Family
I'm ready to leave what you want me to be close to my dad as in the dust, and it's just because of the n word thing.
STOP
Don't answer me in a way that's impolite. Leave me alone. Get help. Post online. Post it in public. Get a Blogger! :0
STOP
Look, I'm tired of the way you supposedly ruined my blog. I'm tired of
the antics of Helena Bonham Carter, twisting, smiling, showing up
without the facts, the way you might play her or the way she may be that
she shouldn't. I don't deserve to be mistreated. Stop attacking me
for not being perfect because I'm pretty perfect in a lot of things.
Stop being suggestive to my successes because you think I'm not white.
And what's with the negro antics, the crazy eye?
Look, stop sassing at me and torturing me. I said stop. ANSWER!
Look, stop cursing around me when I'm relaxing.
I thought I told you to answer. Or stop. You ruined my blog! :0
Stop barking at me with suggestions. What's your answer now? Maybe, leave me alone and Tweet it tomorrow.
Look, stop sassing at me and torturing me. I said stop. ANSWER!
Look, stop cursing around me when I'm relaxing.
I thought I told you to answer. Or stop. You ruined my blog! :0
Stop barking at me with suggestions. What's your answer now? Maybe, leave me alone and Tweet it tomorrow.
Race
I think you're always wrong the way you add up "what" I do and are being racist. What did I do? I didn't attack anyone. You're all racist.
You've been wrong to me my whole life. Go away. No one in public treats me this way. Let me meet other people, and stop stalking me.
I like to play around with the n word, but I'm only doing it to protect myself, like having fun, since you guys don't talk to me. If you have a problem, start being nice to me.
You all have fetishes. Stop being perverted around me. Let me alone. You can't do this. I said stop being mean to me. I can feel pleasure over and over. There's nothing wrong with it, no one thinks. Figure it out. Don't ruin my life. I'm not gonna suffer because of your problems with the n word thing.
What else is wrong? YouTube? What? I was't hurting anyone. Before, others get praised for it. I think it's legal to karaoke. The karaoke is licensed.
Look, quit tapping into my sensitivities. You must be invincible.
I don't believe you are competent. So, just stop. Leave me alone. Figure out your life.
Sometimes, I make a point, but you don't seem to get it. I can arrange words how I want. Sometimes, it's hard to think with my life messed up. You shouldn't be so hypersensitive to me spending money.
Look, go away. Let me have my life. I don't want to be like everyone else.
Stop making these other-worldly sick noises all the time. Let me rest for once in all these years. What's your problem? Come on! Huh? Huh? I said I don't agree with you. Why do I have to waste my time on your problems?
Please leave me alone with my dad. I want nothing to do with him. Just leave me alone. Just be, like, "left in the dust."
Look, quit barking at me. Learn to think and talk. Don't tell me I'm nonsensical because I'm not white! Stop trying to make me out as not that white. Maybe, I have to put in effort to be white. That's because of how people treat me. Look, you ruined my life. I guess you say you never cared. You think you're so better than me. Well, show yourself. Don't come hurting me because you didn't get enough attention.
Look, talk. Quit bothering me with the noises in my room and weird ways of loading things and stuff on my computer.
I want my dad to quit being mean to me and oscillating in how he respecst me.
I have a feeling someone like him will come in and smash a plate over my head. I'm already on the police board.
Look, quit torturing my life with these Hellish surprises.
ANSWER. I'M NO NIGGER!
You've been wrong to me my whole life. Go away. No one in public treats me this way. Let me meet other people, and stop stalking me.
I like to play around with the n word, but I'm only doing it to protect myself, like having fun, since you guys don't talk to me. If you have a problem, start being nice to me.
You all have fetishes. Stop being perverted around me. Let me alone. You can't do this. I said stop being mean to me. I can feel pleasure over and over. There's nothing wrong with it, no one thinks. Figure it out. Don't ruin my life. I'm not gonna suffer because of your problems with the n word thing.
What else is wrong? YouTube? What? I was't hurting anyone. Before, others get praised for it. I think it's legal to karaoke. The karaoke is licensed.
Look, quit tapping into my sensitivities. You must be invincible.
I don't believe you are competent. So, just stop. Leave me alone. Figure out your life.
Sometimes, I make a point, but you don't seem to get it. I can arrange words how I want. Sometimes, it's hard to think with my life messed up. You shouldn't be so hypersensitive to me spending money.
Look, go away. Let me have my life. I don't want to be like everyone else.
Stop making these other-worldly sick noises all the time. Let me rest for once in all these years. What's your problem? Come on! Huh? Huh? I said I don't agree with you. Why do I have to waste my time on your problems?
Please leave me alone with my dad. I want nothing to do with him. Just leave me alone. Just be, like, "left in the dust."
Look, quit barking at me. Learn to think and talk. Don't tell me I'm nonsensical because I'm not white! Stop trying to make me out as not that white. Maybe, I have to put in effort to be white. That's because of how people treat me. Look, you ruined my life. I guess you say you never cared. You think you're so better than me. Well, show yourself. Don't come hurting me because you didn't get enough attention.
Look, talk. Quit bothering me with the noises in my room and weird ways of loading things and stuff on my computer.
I want my dad to quit being mean to me and oscillating in how he respecst me.
I have a feeling someone like him will come in and smash a plate over my head. I'm already on the police board.
Look, quit torturing my life with these Hellish surprises.
ANSWER. I'M NO NIGGER!
STOP
Look. Stop associating bad things with things in my life. Stop attacking me for how I react in ways I can't control. Racism against me shouldn't hold me accountable for others's errors, which cannot be against me undone.
Look, you have no right to send me painful messages. STOP. I DON'T CARE WHAT MY DAD LETS YOU DO. GO AWAY if you have to do this. I guess I don't deserve to ... what, post online? I can post online because anyone can.
Are you just messing up my blog because you have some fetish. You can't tell me what to do. Go away.
Look, I don't care what you people know. I won't get close to certain people in certain ways. Stop playing around with me and saying I have no point. The n word thing doesn't matter. It's your fault. Not mine. I didn't torture anyone. They wanted it.
Stop bothering me. I was about to watch a video online. This is literally eating away at my energy I have left. You're wasting my time!
ANSWER!
Look, you have no right to send me painful messages. STOP. I DON'T CARE WHAT MY DAD LETS YOU DO. GO AWAY if you have to do this. I guess I don't deserve to ... what, post online? I can post online because anyone can.
Are you just messing up my blog because you have some fetish. You can't tell me what to do. Go away.
Look, I don't care what you people know. I won't get close to certain people in certain ways. Stop playing around with me and saying I have no point. The n word thing doesn't matter. It's your fault. Not mine. I didn't torture anyone. They wanted it.
Stop bothering me. I was about to watch a video online. This is literally eating away at my energy I have left. You're wasting my time!
ANSWER!
Glitch
I see Blogger has just started to change the way it does labeling.
It makes me feel funny because I am different now, and before people were really harsh on me in the background yet never were open with me about it, like at all really. I never flat out attack anyone. Sometimes, I say some things in certain orders.
Look, I won't do this. I won't listen to this. I'm from Florida. I see you're randomly making up things. Then, you create more things. I'm from Florida. I'm not allowed to come at things head on.
It makes me feel funny because I am different now, and before people were really harsh on me in the background yet never were open with me about it, like at all really. I never flat out attack anyone. Sometimes, I say some things in certain orders.
Look, I won't do this. I won't listen to this. I'm from Florida. I see you're randomly making up things. Then, you create more things. I'm from Florida. I'm not allowed to come at things head on.
What I Should Have Done
High School
Year 1
1 English I G
2 Geometry G
3 Freshman Orientation | Civics
4 Physical Science H
5 PE I
6 Talented Music I - Singing
7 Talented Theater I
Year 2
1 English II G
2 Algebra II G
3 World History
4 Biology I H
5 PE II | Health
6 Talented Music II - Singing
7 Talented Theater II
Year 3
1 English III APG
2 Advanced Math APG
3 American History H
4 Chemistry H
5 Talented Music III - Singing
6 Talented Theater III
7 French I
Year 4
1 English IV APG
2 Calculus APG
3 Physics H
4 Free Enterprise |
5 Talented Music IV - Singing
6 Talented Theater IV
7 French II
After School - Ballet School + Participation in the City
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Bachelor of Music - Singing + Honors
However, now, I wish I ended up as a Communications & French major and worked for Disney Junior in Burbank.
Year 1
1 English I G
2 Geometry G
3 Freshman Orientation | Civics
4 Physical Science H
5 PE I
6 Talented Music I - Singing
7 Talented Theater I
Year 2
1 English II G
2 Algebra II G
3 World History
4 Biology I H
5 PE II | Health
6 Talented Music II - Singing
7 Talented Theater II
Year 3
1 English III APG
2 Advanced Math APG
3 American History H
4 Chemistry H
5 Talented Music III - Singing
6 Talented Theater III
7 French I
Year 4
1 English IV APG
2 Calculus APG
3 Physics H
4 Free Enterprise |
5 Talented Music IV - Singing
6 Talented Theater IV
7 French II
After School - Ballet School + Participation in the City
College - Loyola University New Orleans - Bachelor of Music - Singing + Honors
However, now, I wish I ended up as a Communications & French major and worked for Disney Junior in Burbank.
Money Money Money Money
So, my first problem was spending money on college and classes that I shouldn't be attending for ballet because I needed rest and time to myself. That was kinda why I was away from home so long. I tried to do general studies, but I was unable to succeed in history and religion. I did honors previously. I think these classes are the classes I took where nothing I got from the material nor in class was on the tests. In high school, I resisted being pulled out of an AP|Gifted class with an attractive French teacher. I didn't know what I was thinking, but I was influenced to get out of other classes, instead. She looked kinda like Ellen DeGeneres, when her hair is mousy. I failed and went to the mental hospital and switched schools twice plus started attending an arts school, in a summer and my last year on Saturdays, for Classical Instrumental Music as a pianist. I also got a foreign exchange student from Germany who played soccer who was 3|4 French. I think her last name was German. It looks like it.. My friend who visited me over the summer had a foreign exchange student from Germany the year before. Also, up north, I was withdrawn when I was unable to complete a history course in music. I was up there during a hurricane. I basically had to switch schools maybe even as early as 5th grade, if not after the 1st semester of 6th grade. I don't remember when I told my dad, "Oh, no!" when he came home because homework kept me from spending time with him. Definitely, when we moved, to a public school, as, anyway, the other Catholic one was taken. The other private one I might like. However, I ended up going to a public school.
So, when I saw the ad for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I felt a sensation that maybe I should not go to college. I should stay home and post online. My dad said I could just stay home in high school when I started to get tired. I had even ended up like giving myself a more reflective schedule.
I posted online. I had bought some ballet DVDs before. So, that was that. But, then, I got store cards and charged for things related to Tim Burton, like material on Sweeney Todd because people online were going crazy about the details. Then, I got some other things. Finally, I couldn't charge anymore, for some reason. I thought I'd pay it back, somehow. Because of this and college, money is tight on me.
Also, I was kicked out of my major and didn't know "what" to do. I was at a prestigious school where I lived for Music Education. I was staying up too late, but I wasn't steered in the right direction, in the end. I lost focus and couldn't study in Washington, D.C., over the summer. The dean wouldn't even sign the paper for me to get credit from the course. I talked to lots of advisers who were suggestive to me. This problem may have stemmed from me not reading the honors books for English.
I'm gonna redo what I should have done in high school, now, make a list.
Also, I started not spending much money. I have a set limit, now. I guess I'll buy what I need and then save the rest for clothes. If I see something special, my dad probably would get it. I'm sure I'll have him buy me some things. I'm lucky to have the spending I have. Simply, with my parents, they buy things a little at a time, but, if I keep at it, they'll stop buying as much. Well, a really little at a time. It depends on what I need and how long I've gone without things. I know I'm supposed to learn to support myself, but I see they see I am now incapable... I should have not skipped eating and exercising for so long. I needed ear plugs.
So, when I saw the ad for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I felt a sensation that maybe I should not go to college. I should stay home and post online. My dad said I could just stay home in high school when I started to get tired. I had even ended up like giving myself a more reflective schedule.
I posted online. I had bought some ballet DVDs before. So, that was that. But, then, I got store cards and charged for things related to Tim Burton, like material on Sweeney Todd because people online were going crazy about the details. Then, I got some other things. Finally, I couldn't charge anymore, for some reason. I thought I'd pay it back, somehow. Because of this and college, money is tight on me.
Also, I was kicked out of my major and didn't know "what" to do. I was at a prestigious school where I lived for Music Education. I was staying up too late, but I wasn't steered in the right direction, in the end. I lost focus and couldn't study in Washington, D.C., over the summer. The dean wouldn't even sign the paper for me to get credit from the course. I talked to lots of advisers who were suggestive to me. This problem may have stemmed from me not reading the honors books for English.
I'm gonna redo what I should have done in high school, now, make a list.
Also, I started not spending much money. I have a set limit, now. I guess I'll buy what I need and then save the rest for clothes. If I see something special, my dad probably would get it. I'm sure I'll have him buy me some things. I'm lucky to have the spending I have. Simply, with my parents, they buy things a little at a time, but, if I keep at it, they'll stop buying as much. Well, a really little at a time. It depends on what I need and how long I've gone without things. I know I'm supposed to learn to support myself, but I see they see I am now incapable... I should have not skipped eating and exercising for so long. I needed ear plugs.
Street Sweep
I just cleaned my room for awhile. Things are put away to an utmost. I merely need to finish it up! I need to go through papers. I might have to disinfect some things, but no biggie. I am wondering what to spend my money on. Should I splurge on hygienic material or get some new shirts and maybe some decent pants? I don't know if I'm tired of the colored pants. I was really tired of black pants and jeans and some khakis. My white pants got stained, not sure how to bleach them, should have worn them, anyway. Ooh, I mean for next month, though. I just realized I could put some stuff in my drawers that are on my table. I'm thinking of saving money. I need eye liner, nail polish, female things, a full-sized hair dryer, new facial cleanser, toner, & moisturizer. So, that will cost, at least, $40. Probably $45 - $50. I have some subscriptions, total to maybe $20 - $25. I think I can barely make due with the loungewear I presently own.
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